a blog about emotional healing and spiritual awakening

Hey, welcome to my blog!

Over the years, I’ve written more than 180 posts, each one a reflection of my own healing journey. Here, I share stories, insights, and gentle guidance to support you in deepening your self-awareness, emotional healing, and spiritual awakening.

You’re invited to explore what speaks to you, so feel free to browse the latest posts below or use the categories and search bar to find what resonates most.

Antonya Catahlinah Beamish 27/12/2024 Antonya Catahlinah Beamish 27/12/2024

After 5 Years Sober Here’s Why I Chose to Drink Again

In this post I reflect on my five years of sobriety and the decision I recently made to drink once more. I explore the emotions of guilt, self-awareness, and personal growth, sharing how I learned to trust myself and embrace freedom from labels, control and fear.

Antonya Catahlinah Beamish 12/10/2024 Antonya Catahlinah Beamish 12/10/2024

Why You Can’t Slow Down Even Though You Want To

Exploring the impact of 12-3 Soul Contract energy on impatience, urgency, and burnout, and how this energy drives avoidance, addiction, and a fast-paced life. Explore your own Soul Contract to gain greater self-awareness and achieve personal healing and growth.

Antonya Catahlinah Beamish 30/11/2022 Antonya Catahlinah Beamish 30/11/2022

At 3 years sober here's what I know for sure

I was never an alcoholic, but in the years leading up to my final decision to cut alcohol out of my life for good, like a bad ex boyfriend, I started to have a funny feeling around alcohol. Drinking was becoming slightly tainted. Something that was fast reaching its sell-by date.