In this post I reflect on my five years of sobriety and the decision I recently made to drink once more. I explore the emotions of guilt, self-awareness, and personal growth, sharing how I learned to trust myself and embrace freedom from labels, control and fear.

I was never an alcoholic, but in the years leading up to my final decision to cut alcohol out of my life for good, like a bad ex boyfriend, I started to have a funny feeling around alcohol. Drinking was becoming slightly tainted. Something that was fast reaching its sell-by date.

Instagram has been eating away at my joy and eroding my confidence, so I made the decision to leave. This is my story.

One year ago I decided to stop drinking. Here's what I learned along the way and why I believe being sober is the best thing for my wellbeing.

When I gave up drinking alcohol after listening to my intuition, I never expected I would be writing this post 250 days into my sober journey.